Be Gracious to Me: I’m Afflicted

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Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. Relieve the troubles of my heart and free me from my anguish.”
Psalm 25:17-18

Over 10 years ago, I lost a very dear friend of mine and for the longest, I didn’t want to face the fact that I was dealing with an affliction called GRIEF. I didn’t know what to do.

An affliction is something that causes pain or suffering. It doesn’t just have to be a physical feeling. It can be emotional, mental, or financially. It can even be something that “most” people wouldn’t consider an affliction. At the end of the day, the affliction afflicts the person being affected by it – not those on the outside peeking in.

When people don’t understand your affliction or minimize it – that can be an affliction on its own.

To some – having children on some days can seem like an affliction.
Maybe there’s an illness or some diagnosis you received about your child that’s been afflicting you…

But to those who are unable to have children – that’s another affliction.

Maybe for you, it’s a work situation or lack of work. Maybe it’s a debt that just seems to never get smaller and the hope of financial increase looks bad. REAL BAD.

Maybe it’s your marriage or the lack of marriage that seems to be your source of pain or suffering.

Perhaps your affliction is some situation you think about constantly at night and you always have it on your mind…even while sleeping.

Afflictions can have many purposes that include and are not limited to test the character or faith of the sufferer.

The Scripture admonishes us that it is good for us to be afflicted so that we might learn his decrees – but what happens when you don’t want to learn them?

What happens when you are at a place where you have to make a choice?

  • Either bend your knee to the affliction and give in to it…
  • or bend your knee to God and give into Him.

At this time in my life when I was so angry in my grief, I chose to give into my affliction and turn away from God.
I was absolutely crushed. I didn’t trust God anymore. I was hurt and I felt betrayed by God. I was angry with God for leaving me in what I called a mess.

What about you?

I let my affliction win. I didn’t put up much of a fight at all. God’s grace is not what I sought after. Instead, I just kept it all in and chased everything and everyone on the outside…not dealing with my insides. I didn’t want to deal with the affliction. I only wanted to numb it.

Have you ever been in a place where you could use some of God’s kindness? You ever needed him to be gracious towards you because of your affliction?

Reve Walsh is the wife of John Walsh (host of the television show America’s Most Wanted) Reve and John’s six year old son, Adam was kidnapped and murdered in 1981. In a recent interview, she said that she used to say she couldn’t wait until a few years had passed so his death wouldn’t hurt so much, but after twenty plus years – she said it still feels the same.

AFFLICTED.

I can remember a time in this situation and others, asking God, “How long will this last?”

Or maybe your thoughts go like this:

“Lord, will I have this problem for the rest of my life?”
“Lord, do you plan to EVER deliver me from this?”
and if and until you do Lord…how will I make it through?

Sometimes, afflictions never seem to have ending. They just go on and on and on. We want answers on when it will end, and it never comes. What’s an area where you need grace for an affliction?

Remember – GOD WILL BE GRACIOUS TO YOU.

Beloved, this blog isn’t a step by step on how to get away from an affliction.

Instead, it’s a blog meant to encourage you to lay those afflictions out before the Lord, regardless of how long they stay with you.

Be Blessed and receive His Grace….

Katrina

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